Monthly Archives: January 2009

Colossians 3:13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Ok, so no big intro today, everyone is good, we are all well and happy. On to the above. http://www.christianity.com has this neat bible study site that has a random scripture generator. This was in the scripture it generated for me today. This is sooooo hard for me. Not only does it say forgive, but bear with each other. This may seem difficult, but if we really forgive, should it be? I know the concept of forgive and forget comes up often, should we forgive and act as if nothing happened? Some may say yes, but isn’t that the same as not taking the time and energy to learn from past mistakes? Oh, I hit my thumb with a hammer, I forgive the hammer, forget it and do it again next time? Or next time I am a little more careful and a little more guarded with my thumb? Sure I have to use the hammer again, so I have to bear with the hammer, but I don’t necessarily need to forget that I smashed my thumb last time and the potential for it to happen again. (I know it is a lot easier to relate this to a hammer than a person, but bear with me (no pun intended) and I may actually get to a point) This verse comes from a passage that was called Rules for Holy Living. I have over the years in many different religions heard many things about forgiveness. I personally think that forgiveness is more for the person forgiving than that being forgiven. Yes there may be peace of mind for the receiver to know that forgiveness has been given, but think about it. We relate a grudge to a cancer, it starts small, but without acknowledgment and action it can quickly fester and grow into something monstrous and scary. Personally, it is not easy to forgive and let things go, and I know I can hold a grudge. But sometimes you just have to sit back and think, what am I accomplishing for me or anyone around me by being upset about this? or angry? Where I work most people get to the point that they say “It is what it is” and when you think about it, you have no control over what others are doing, only how you let it affect you and your life.. so why spend any more time than is necessary on things that in the grand scheme of things matter very little? For me personally, with the trials and tribulations of the last 2 years in our family, I have learned there are 4 important things in my life, God, Thomas, Sean and Phil. The rest is stuff. Do I love others? Of course, my extended family means the world to me, but when it comes down to it, those 4 are what really at the core matters. Do I still get upset about stuff? Do I still have grudges? ABSOLUTELY.. however the difference I think is that I am starting to realize them quicker and realize the difference in when I say I forgive something and when I actually do. When I quick letting the small stuff get to me and bother me, I am learning I am a much happier me.

ok, here it is

Well, I am trying my best to remember to post. So much happens in our lives, and I never seem to remember everything. I used to be a list person, but with 2 kids that has fallen by the wayside. Plus when work is just chaos… my brain doesn’t function as well as it once did.

ok, so things here are hectic and as I did a random search for a scripture today, this is what came up.. funny how that happens that the scripture just happens to have relevance…

1 Samual 30

22. But all the evil men and troublemakers among David’s followers said, “Because they did not go out with us, we will not share with them the plunder we recovered. However, each man may take his wife and children and go.”

23. David replied, “No, my brothers, you must not do that with what the LORD has given us. He has protected us and handed over to us the forces that came against us.

24. Who will listen to what you say? The share of the man who stayed with the supplies is to be the same as that of him who went down to the battle. All will share alike.

I am having a problem lately that some people at work either don’t pull their weight, pull too much weight or want to jump in and yell at the last minute. It is very easy to say screw you, I did the hard work to get here, now get out of my way and let me do my job.. which is where I was today when I read the above. You know what, everyone has different motivations for their actions, and everyone can get to the same point through various means. There is no reason to become defensive. Yes it is nice to get recognition for hard work, but at the end of the day in all we do, it is how we do it together and what we do with what we have. I am grateful that I have been blessed with the ability to do the job I do, and that I can contribute in a meaningful way to my company, to my family, to my church and just in general to those around me. So my pledge from now on is to try and do better with feeling the need for recognition and justification. God knows my heart and what is in it, and what I have and have not done… I can leave it all up to him and move on from there. I am not saying that will be easy, who doesn’t like a pat on the back, but I will not seek it or use it to my advantage, but be humbled by it and know it comes from not just those around me but through them from God.

I really hope my little ramblings are helping others, it is hard to put yourself out there sometimes and I just appreciate that you are reading, and even if noone reads, it helps me collect my thoughts and forces me to reflect. Well, off to finish my work and get it to those that are waiting. I hope everyone has a great week.

here it is, another post

Well, this week has been a little difficult, I have missed Sean so much, but know that he is having a great time. We have tried to keep Phil busy, but every once in a while he still goes to the bottom of the stairs and starts yelling Bubba. Thomas and I have actually got to do things together instead of divide and conquer, though grocery shopping together may not be fun for all, it is a rarity for us. Sean has called every night except last night, but I suspect they went to the light parade and just got back too late.

At work I got some big stuff finished this week and things should slow down for maybe 2 -3 days before the next wave. Having such a small department, we stay busy which is nice, it keeps me from getting too distracted.

OK the quote of the day:

When you get to the end of all the light you know and it’s time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: either you will be given something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly.” -Edward Teller

I think it is pretty explanatory, with faith, you just know when God leads you to something he will lead you through it. It may not be how you pictured it happening, or how you are comfortable with it happening, but with faith, you will come through it in His time and way. This is not always easy to accept. Over the past 2 years with my husband’s and my own illnesses, I have learned to put a lot of faith and trust that I have to let God have it.. I can’t expect things to happen on my timetable or wishes, He has a plan and will be there for me.

Ok, enough rambling for the day. If you can’t tell, I lately have been focusing on working on my spiritual health. Yes I believe in God and that He is the way for me, but I am struggling with am I really listening to Him, and doing what He wants me to, or am I doing things with selfish reasons and being impatient. I think it is a little bit of both. I think my relationship with Him will always be changing and growing, and a lot of it depends on me and my ability to let go.. I need to work on control issues.. (I like to have what I want, when I want it…I know a big surprise for anyone that knows me) Anyay, again, enough rambling for now.

For everyone reading.. have a great weekend and enjoy the cold. It may even snow here Sunday, which is a complete rarity. (It is 25 F here and 18 with the wind chill..) So stay warm and until next time, may you be blessed


A new year, a resolution, random pondering

ok, so I started this blog when Thomas was really sick as a way to keep everyone informed without burning up all of my cell phone minutes. Well, now that it is a new year, I am hoping to keep up with this blog and amuse everyone with my witty writing. Ok, well, I am not very witty, but am hoping to use this to chronicle our lives this year to have it as a history for future entertainment. As of right now, it is January 12 2009. I am at work, and have finally been ordered not to help out the person filling my previous position, and to concentrate solely on my new position, which is a little bit of a relief, but also very hard to do since we are a small company I hate to feel like I am not pitching in. Oh well, we will see how it goes. Thomas is still really enjoying his new position, and for the first time since we have been together (over 9 years) he does not complain about being called about work and occasionally even brings work home to get it done. Sean is doing great in school, although this week he is playing hookey with my mom and dad who have taken him to Disney World for the week. I know he is having a blast, but I miss him so. Phil is great, now that Sean is not here to talk for him, his vocabulary is exploding, and with it comes the heartbreak every mother knows when your baby calls you Mommy instead of Mama. But it is all good, he is still a major cuddlebug and just funny. And a dancing machine.. he is such a ham, and just happy. I am hoping that in the coming year we continue to be healthy and hope to stay in touch with old friends and make new ones and hope that we have as blessed a year as possible. Today is a new day and from this point on is a new chance to believe and trust that all is good.

In addition to posting, I also want to include quotes that hit me in some way or another… Right now I am hooked on the following bible verse and the implications of it…

“…And to whomsoever much is given, of him shall much be required: and to whom they commit much, of him will they ask the more.” Luke 12:48

Just a pondering – if you really look at what this says, it makes sense and applies to all aspects of your life, not only your spiritual life, which is a big facet, but think about how many times you do a good job at work, only to get more work… It may not seem fair, but it is what it is.. so the next time you feel overwhelmed at the mountain in front of you, remember, you have been given a skill, a talent, a gift, and God wants you to use this gift… just think how blessed you are to have it and to use it, as there are those who are not given much, and thus less is expected. When you are proficient at whatever you do, people will recognize it, appreciate it, and know that you can do more. Think of it as a blessing to know you can handle it.

Ok, enough rambling for today. I am hoping to post at least once a week, so be sure to check back often

With love and blessings –

Anna